14 Jul “Nobody Is Interested in You!!!”..

A scene on a tram: a child sings, it enjoys life in a relaxed manner. It starts to irritate the Grandma, so she shouts at the child: „Nobody is interested in you…“
The little girl stops. Her grandma repeats the sentence several times….
The little girl backs off. Suddenly she is not relaxed anymore… She feels anger, but also sadness…
I realise… How often do we release these sorts of sentences into the air..? And how do they influence us..?
However, children are fundamentally influenced by such sentences! And suddenly the child might have a block later. It won’t naturally sing and show emotion in public with the same courage… If somebody keeps telling you that you can’t do something over and over again – you will believe it. And it will be your reality.
I also remember the time when I stopped working in the educational system after seven years. It happened after several therapies which I underwent in Prague and in Vienna…
During this period, I started to work intensively with my mind… and the results appeared immediately.
However there was a but to it…
It demolished my life…. fast.. and completely…
I came to work and I was thinking to myself: „Am I really doing this..? Is this about me? Do I want to do this in the long term..? Do I want to work like this? In this system where individuality doesn’t mean much?
I started to educate myself, study languages, travel.. I started to observe minds.. listen to recordings.. every now and then it was hypnotic recordings from an on-line hypnosis programme, sometimes I was looking for interesting subliminal recordings on the internet,…
However it is most difficult to switch the mind to a different position….
And I consider this to be the most difficult!!!
Because if you don’t have support from those surrounding you, it will be unbelievably difficult for you – to keep your vision… You will believe that you have other possibility,… but maybe your surroundings will pull you somewhere down, it will keep creating a barrier for you by its negativity…..
If you want to free yourself from something and set off on a different journey – you have to start noticing the programmes around you. And how people react to them. Sadly, these are the stereotypes by which we are shaped… Some of them were taught by our parents, others come from the society as such. However! It is not anybody’s fault…. Because people are often unaware of it and they don’t know what they are doing… when they pass their horrific programmes further on…
We all need something different for ourselves…
Acceptance is often missing. Some sort of respect that your route is different to mine…. and mine different to yours…
When I travelled I started to observe differences. Without this step, I would probably never have paid attention to how I live…. It is because at some point I started to believe that I didn’t have any other choice, just to stick to that…
However, after seven years, my soul was crying… Ever greater dissatisfaction occurred .. as if something was pushing me, as if I was suffocating, as in a straight jacket….
I started to work with my mind… to do a lot of experiments…
There was time when it made me suffer a lot and there was no other way…
And later an uplifting time came when at least I felt a small sign of progress…
Flyyyyyiiing……
These moments kept quickly changing….
However, it was important – to observe and explore more…
I consciously started to programme my mind through hypnosis… I tried a lot of different kinds of mental techniques on myself in order to find out – how to work with emotions and with repressed anger or fear…
I was learning what no-one ever taught me… How to motivate myself, cope with failure, criticism, but also how to leave it behind, how to change that strange programme in my head where one keeps telling him/herself that everything is pointless… and undermines himself/herself… often moves into mental self-destruction…..
I became an explorer,… seeker.. pilgrim… and maybe a fool and a madman at the same time… because there was just “here and now”…
I was learning how to work with my mind but also my excessive sensitivity…
I was learning to be more flexible,…. so that I could go my own way…
I was learning to show vulnerability, because there is great strength in vulnerability….
I was learning how to mentally protect myself from the programmes that were influencing me…
I was learning again how to show emotions and not to suppress them…
I was learning how to use my excessive sensibility in different situations to my own advantage…
I was learning how to react to manipulation by those surrounding me,… which sometimes happen to everybody…
Most of all, I realised that those surrounding me and their programmes are a crucial influence. Stereotypes..
They are like codes…. they are perfectly implanted in our heads. Some of them are alien – in the sense that we picked them up generationally, when we came to this world.. some of them were picked up from society as such…. we created some of them on our own so that we wouldn’t be too different…… and we would fit into this dimension just like others….
I started to meet other people…
I started to observe the state of my mind and behaviour after I left to travel… and then the state after I returned … because coming back to Slovakia annihilated me…
Different environment, different codes…
Different experiences… different stereotypes…
Different countries… different stories…
Because it is normal in Slovakia to have a mortgage, to be in debt,… but there are also people who really don’t own anything…. and they are happy ..
I know Emily, she had a big house and she lived in Australia.. but she had a jealous husband… She said: I had everything. I didn’t suffer from poverty… and still, one day I looked in the mirror and I said to myself: Girl this is not you anymore!… I went through psychotherapy.. I got divorced.. we sold the house.. we bought a camper and we started to travel around Europe. We always chose a programme for teaching English and we travelled…
We are still in contact with Emily… She is a very free being with a big heart ….♡♡♡
I don’t even know how to finish this article… because I keep coming up with x other examples…
Simply – whether we want it or not, we are influenced by some programmes …
And mind programming lurks everywhere… It is not about hypnosis, nor special techniques, we actually use mind programming daily…
Yes, it starts with the sentence from childhood: “Nobody is interested in you…” later, it is: “You can’t do it… you are not able…” Or negatives: “You think? Could you do that…? But you…” Or it is the good old: “It’s impossible..”
And these are the beliefs, which form our lives…
The tragedy is that if we believe them… if we start to believe that we are not entitled to something else…
The tragedy is that if somebody can see potential in you and you yourself are not able to believe that, you also have a different option, to change your life in a way so that you could fully express – what is in you and be happy…. the tragedy is that if you do not perceive yourself as a capable being with great potential and endless possibilities…. The tragedy is that if your soul cries and you don’t hear it. You don’t hear it because you don’t want to hear it….. the tragedy is that if your soul cries and demands change and you silence it because you are wearing a mask… This is how somebody taught it to you…
I must…
I should…
It‘s polite to…
Well… Everything is a process…..
It is a journey
Today, I am looking at it gratefully…♤♡◇♧□☆
And it continues…
It challenges me to fight…
And it challenges me to spread positive thoughts – that we can change a lot of what is inside of us…
Be good and observe your mind…..
And most of all: listen to your soul….. the voice, that sometimes cries inside you, or suffocates and cries for help…..
It is real!
And it is a possibility of how to return to your heart – home …. ♡
With love and appreciation…
Alien girl Kity….